A Much Better Day

So after my post yesterday, I just had to tell y'all that today was a MUCH better day. Given, Logan didn't take a nap at all today (first time that he's ever done that). BUT!!! I am very happy to say that it was a great day. I handled everything very well and I just feel great :) Really happy :) :) :)
p.s. Thanks for your comments Melissa! You're awesome :*

Exhaustion

So it's 9:49 at night and my eye lids are already tired. It's amazing how exhausting being a mom is. You know, Today was a hard day. Not that Logan was overly hard, it was just hard on me. I want to start off by saying, I love my son dearly. He makes me so happy and I love him with all my heart. But... by the time I had made him spit crayons out of his mouth for the ump-teenth time and rewound the toilet paper once again. I may or may not have said, "I don't want to be a mom anymore!" I completely didn't mean it of course. It's one of those things that completely slipped out without me thinking. So of course I feel horrible and the look on Logan's face.... (I don't know if he understood EXACTLY what I was saying but I know he could tell a little bit....) It just made me want to cry. For some reason though, I still couldn't pull myself out of the stupid rut I've been in all day today. So of course, even though I would LOVE to lose some weight and be healthy and fit, I made chocolate chip cookies. It's amazing what baking does for the soul. I think I even slightly made up for my little out burst earlier when I snuck Logan some cookie dough and he gave me HUGE kisses and hugs and even a double pat on the back. That made me feel pretty good. It's amazing how even though I screw up and, what I feel like, am the worst mother in the history of the world, Logan forgives me so easily. So when I was putting him to bed tonight, I just had to hold him after he fell asleep and kiss his sweet little chubby cheeks and whisper to him how sorry I am and how kind he is and how sweet and loving. I guess what I'm trying to say is that being a mom is hard! Like I knew it would be hard, but I could have never guessed how hard. It's the most rewarding and emotionally taxing job in the universe!!!!!!!!! I see mom's out there that seem so put together and openly love their kids and have them with them all the time etc etc etc. I have to just keep telling myself that they have bad days too and I only see the good. I'm just glad that kids are so forgiving and that a little bit of cookie dough can make up for unintentional harsh words.

Ikea

So we went to Ikea today. Ikea was awesome. I mean, have YOU been to IKEA?! If yes, you know what I'm talking about. It was amazing. I wish I had a billion dollars so I could have an entire Ikea house. Oh wait, I would probably only need 1/100 of that so $100,000 since everything at Ikea is so inexpensive. Yes, that much would get me more then enough for an Ikea house. We needed some drinking glasses. (I've had such bad luck breaking all of my dishes lately. Instead of having a full set, we have 3 of everything now. Not to mention the Bed Bath and Beyond drinking glasses that break when you look at them (yes, they are that fragile)). Ikea has the greatest glasses ever. They are $.59 and have lasted us the best. (I bought 4 more). I had to hold myself back from buying a bunch of stuff. Logan loved the childrens part of Ikea. He found himself an awesome bunk bed and played with the toys under it.

Yah, we know which bed he's going to be getting when he's older. Now after wandering through the maze that is Ikea, you check out and then, you HAVE to go to the food court. No, not the resturant with their famous Swedish Meatballs, I'm talking the little food market after the self checkouts. The one that beckons you near with their chocolate bars and foreign delicacies. (Cookies and Crackers etc) There, YOU CAN GET 2 HOTDOGS, CHIPS and A DRINK for $2.50. THAT's LESS THEN SAM'S CLUB! Yah, I like food. not only that but we also got 3 bars of chocolate and 1/2 dozen cinnamon rolls. (yes, there goes my diet but it was delicious) We ended up spending more on the food then we did on our other purchases. Anyway that was my day, along with severe rain/wind storms and tornados. You know, what seems to be the usual for Bmore these days.

 OH! Before I go, I HAVE to share something with you. It's amazing. You know that stubborn dust that seems to collect on blinds or on bottles in the bathroom etc.? Use a drier sheet. Yes, the ones that you put in the laundry with your clothes. It takes it right off and best of all, you don't have to wipe up anything afterwards because the sheet catches it all. Try it! Try it now! I DARE YOU!

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Yah, I couldn't think of a title for this post so I just wrote what was on my mind. Logan and I went to the pool today, again. I think I got a little reddish (not burned, just... tender) and also left with a rash (chlorine?) who knows or maybe it's from the sun. I finally figured out how to still get me time in the sun and have a great time with Logan. So, I go on a walk with Logan almost around the time he naps so he falls asleep in the stroller. I don't go to far from home on the walk so that the second he shuts those eyes I book it for home, change into my swim suit, grab the towels, floaty, sunscreen, swim diapers, flip flops, keys and of course, a book for myself. Today, the book was Miracle of Forgiveness by Spencer W. Kimball. I read it when I was in high school and decided it was about time I read it again. I made it to the pool, checked in and found an open lounge chair where I could strategically place the stroller as to not have Logan in the sun. I spread my towel out, took off my shorts and tank top (I was wearing a swimsuit... promise) and settled down for some "me" time by the pool. It was great... Logan was sleeping, the sun was shining, there was a soft breeze (not to hot, not to cold), a good book, sounds pretty great right? Oh, it was. Other than the young child and his teenage(?) sister who was at the pool. The little boy was fine but of course the girl had to have her giant blowup floaty (Not Allowed (sorry, pet peeve) (yes, I'm one of those people)). Not only was she one of those people who wish to be in the pool and not get wet, but she is also the person who has to call her mother, on speaker phone, to complain about her brother. "Ma, (insert name here) keeps splashing. He drug me to da poool and i candt afford da get more tanner. He can but I candt. Tell him ma that its time ta ged owt." (Inaudible answer due to my location to the speaker on the phone. You know, that annoying place where you're to close to where you can hear the person speaking but not close enough to be able to eavesdrop on the entire conversation) Yah, it went on like that for a while. Thankfully a near parked car's car alarm went off right in the middle of it. Logan did wake up. Really surprised me. Anyway, it was nice when all that went away and I could just focus on my book for the next hour till Logan woke up. We had a great time in the pool. He is starting to want to be out of his floaty more than in it and he is very stubborn when he knows what he wants. He had a blast walking back and forth on the stairs and I of course had a great time walking back and forth with him (making sure not to hold his hand because he wouldn't have that) and just waiting for him to trip and go under and DROWN! Didn't happen of course and he did really well. He keeps getting more brave with water. Can't tell if that's good or bad for his age since he already is VERY brave with it. Yah, that lasted for another hour and thankfully, it wore him out enough that he went to sleep a half hour early tonight. 

I can't believe how big he is. He use to be so little. I mean, I birthed this kid. He use to make me so tired that I would wake up in the middle of the night when he would cry and thinking I was feeding him would realize after who knows how long that I was instead attempting to breast feed a pillow. Now, he just makes me tired in the middle of the day and... oh I don't even know what crazy stuff I do anymore. I feel like my brain is constantly running and tripping over its self. Anyway, that was my day. Pretty good. OH! I was growing peas... because I'm a farm girl and I wanted fresh peas... yah, the plants seem to have gone rotten. Joy... Oh well, Frozen peas for me then. :) Worth a try. 

Now to leave you with a smile.

Yah, I'm kinda into Parks and Rec right now.

Summer Time

We have a pool at our complex and oh how we LOVE it! Logan is a little fish. We have been taking advantage of the pool last week and now that I'm sitting inside I feel a little bit guilty for missing it. It's okay though, we will take advantage of it, hopefully, tomorrow.

Can you see how frumpy my little guy looks? Well, he's still adorable, but he needed a hair cut obviously to look like a little boy again. So, after much work....

TA DA!!!!

Doesn't he look so much cuter?! So much more like a little boy then I could have ever imagined. (I was slightly worried he would look bald but alas, he doesn't) :)
Logan has grown so much! We went and played at a park today with some friends from our ward and he climbed all over the playset and went down some slides. Given, most of the time was spent handing me little handfuls of bark or putting sticks in his mouth but we had a great time! It's nice to get out of the house and talk with other women.
We are hoping we will be able to come home this summer. It would be VERY nice but unfortunately we don't know what this summer has in store for us. With work, research, etc etc etc. Ah, such is life. :P 

Now, here is something funny to leave with you and words to live by: