confusing times..

Get a job, love the job. make a promise that if i get a job that i don't have to work on sunday i'd take the job. never promised i'd get rid of the other job. get interview for another job. could keep two jobs. could suggest someone else for interview. Need to make decisions. love someone. no confusion about that. need to write off someone. how to tell someone you don't feel the same. The future can't come fast enough... the future is confusing. the future is scary. 

Then and Now

My parents i found out. Were praying so hard that i would find someone else. Anyone, to come into my life and show me how beautiful i am, how wonderful life is and how great things are. They weren't praying for a man in particular. Just anyone to help me. 

That's when I met Spencer. I had seen him quite a few times before. Although he doesn't remember he actually did talk to me and I to him. I was somewhat quiet and I guess never really stood out much. 

My parents call Spencer an answer to their prayers. I don't know how or why he found me when he did. Although at first I thought it was the most inconvenient time. It turned out to be the best time. He has made me feel so beautiful. So worth every minute of time. He shows me what my potential really is. He makes me breakfast and teaches me to cook fajitas. He surprises me with flowers. He is the answer to my whole families prayers, my friends prayers and my silent ones. 

I believe everything happens for a reason. I have no doubt that him leaving and Spencer coming into my life around the same time was suppose to happen. When I called and talked to my mom about Spencer and what was going on it was the first time that her and I had talked in nearly 2 years that didn't end with us getting into an argument. 

She told me that she got off the phone and started crying because she was so happy. My family is so thankful for this man who has entered into my life as am I. We always will be grateful to Spencer. 

I love Spencer. He means everything to me. We are so grateful. I love him so much. He has shown me what real love can be and is. 

Weber High, Smoothies and Scary Movies

On Thursday, May 7, 2009. Emily,

 Spencer and I went to

 Weber high school for a

 band concert.

 Emily told us that I had to compare how different the Utah State Band was and Weber High Band. She was right! Weber High isn't as good but they certainly have improved! The car ride was super fun! haha as usual! 

Spencer always drives and it makes me feel bad that he has too.. if Em and i still had the van we would totally take turns! i totally loved the shirt spence was wearing! :)

I really hoped spencer wasn't too bored. haha 

then we went to mcdonalds!!! it was so much fun!!! Spencer got to spicy chickens (apparently they don't have those in Baltimore) Emily got to ranch wraps and i got two double cheese burgers. (no pickles no onions of course!) 

My family talked to us for quite some time. I am so glad that i can talk to my family! i love them so much!!! It was a really fun experience!!! 

Friday May 9, 2009. Emily and I made our stawberry banana smoothies today! To start the story off, when Em and I moved in, we got a free blender from the girls moving out next door. Em was a little nervous to use it because she didn't know how it worked. Neither did i but it didn't matter because i was preoccupied with a movie in the living room. When i walked into the kitchen, the drink was ready to be poured. only problem... we didn't know how to get the top of the blender off. 

Emily pulled on the blender and it wouldn't come off. Finally we realized that we should try taking the top of at a higher place... 

needless to say, that dislocated the containment unit from the blender with no bottom to the container allowing the contents to spill out onto the counter.

 Oh man was it a mess. 

 was screaming, I was screaming and when Emily went to go grab a paper towel she managed to dislocated the paper towel rack i had just mounted on our wall which made us scream and laugh louder! The smoothie, once we got it into the cups (from walmart! thanks Kathy!!!), was absolutely delicious! good ol' roommate 

experiences!  :D

Then tonight, May 12, 2009, we watched signs over at Spencers house. His roommates probably hate me becuase i screamed so so so loud!!! in my defense!!! Spencer helped me out on freaking me out! he would grab me at a scary part! It was supper fun!!!