I hate good looking moms

Ok, I am going to apologize now for anything I say that may upset anybody. Gosh dang it do I hate cute looking moms. Seriously, where in the crap do you find time to do your hair, pick out an outfit that actually looks good on your new mom body, put on shoes and... oh look... you showered too. Well congratulations. I showered today. Oh you can't tell? Well I did. I promise. Yes, this is only the second time I've worn these pants this week. I am caught up on the laundry... not on myself but the laundry yes. This nail polish was touched up yesterday. I know it doesn't look like it but yes, there wasn't a chip in it before I did the dishes. I think I will just avoid the newly cleaned handprint free mirror for the day.
I follow some blogs of moms and I'm not going to lie, I am really growing to dislike all of these people. One I knew in high school (cheerleader, you know the type) and it's always a new outfit, perfect makeup, perfect hair. Another, a freakin' bodybuilder bikini model. I'm lucky I shaved my legs today!
Don't get me wrong, I love being a mother. I love my son so much. I just want some style and feel good about myself again. Until then though, all you moms out there had better watch out because I swear if I meet you in a dark ally your cute outfit will not make it out alive.

Spring

feelin' these songs

Had an amazing day with Logan today. Played outside and had a picnic, went for a walk (which he fell asleep during) went out on the patio and blew bubbles. Logan blew bubbles all by himself for the first time today. Given, most of the bubble solution wound up on his head and all over my legs and hands but it was a good experience and one of those moments that will be in my mind I hope forever. I got to go to the gym as well (yes, I need to get my butt back into shape) and ran for 30 minutes. I wish I hadn't screwed up my knee is high school. I would love to run a marathon but seeing as how it's painful to just run 3 miles... we will see if I ever strengthen my knee enough. It was nice to go and sweat and just run. I love how warm it is. It was a toasty 85 degrees here today (and of course humid) and I loved it. If I could, and if I could handle chasing Logan out of the dirt and away for garbage that long, I would stay outside all day. I wish the pool was open but I don't think it opens for another month. I am looking forward to seeing how Logan does in the water. I'm not worried about him not liking it at all cause he loved it last year and even blows bubbles in the bathtub and puts his whole face in. (that's right, I'm raising the next Michael Phelps) I am just excited to see what he can do in a big pool and how happy he will be :). He was so good today and we had so much fun. Gosh I'm glad winter is out-a-here. I was done with being cooped up inside all day. ONTO SPRING!

Nervous

So I know this is silly but I am so nervous...  My little boy has to go to the Cardiologist on Tuesday. We have two appointments that day which include an echo and whatever else they are going to do. The doctor said she could hear a murmur the last two appointments. She could even tell which area of his heart it was so it's a pretty big one. I'm just hoping that it's nothing worse. I just don't want anything to happen to my little boy. I know I'm probably over reacting but it's so hard to see your kids go through things and to know that they are going to get poked and examined and you hope it's nothing worse. You never want to imagine your kid like that. It would kill me to see him hurt or hooked up to machines. It just seems so much more real now that it's only a few days away.  I knew that this appointment was coming for over a month... but now it's real. Before it was there, written on the calender next to our dinner schedule. Now it's on the week. Now as soon as I turn that page from March to April, it will be right there. Staring me in the face. I don't want to have to go to this appointment alone. I don't want to sit there, trying to hold onto a squirming one year old and hoping that there is nothing wrong with him all by myself. Hopefully I wont have to. We will see.
On a happy side note, we went on a trip to Philadelphia last Thursday to Sunday. I love going and learning more about history and art. I got to stand inches away from monet, degas, turner, picasso, rodin, and van gogh. Oh when I turned that corner and saw that monet. I really wanted to cry. He's one of my biggest art Heros. You really can't appreciate it through pictures like you can in real life. The layers of colors and paint and the artists hand that I had never really noticed before. That was amazing. The steps of the museum was also where the famous rocky scene was shot with him running up the stairs. There is a statue there and some random guy said he would take our picture for us. After he did he said he was homeless and doing it for tips... I said, sorry, I don't have any money on me. After a run-in with a homeless guy in downtown Baltimore, I don't feel guilty saying no. Besides the Philadelphia Museum of Art we also went to the Philadelphia zoo (which Logan loved) and spent an entire day wandering the city of Philadelphia and looking for history things. We saw Independence Hall, the Liberty Bell, Carpenters Hall, Penns Landing, Washington square (A tomb of an unknown soldier of washingtons army. and it was a mass grave yard for other people and turned into a park) Benjamin Franklins printing shop and post office. The printing shop was my favorite. We bought a hand printed Declaration of Independence as well as a couple of Franklins famous quotes like the political cartoon of the Snake "don't tread on me".  It was a blast. On the way home we decided to stop off at Valley Forge and check that out. Pretty neat stuff.

A pretty peacock. 

Me licking the liberty bell

Logan insisted on walking up ever single stair of the art museum. My little Rocky 

He loves Elephants. One of the things he does sound for

The first Monet I saw

I think I could replace the "Thinker" don't you?

a whole year!!!

so Logan turned one in December! that year flew by fast. I was going through all of my pics and i happened upon all of these :)

 Look how much my lil man has grown!!!! Today he went down the slide at the Bounce House all by himself. (and this wasn't a wimpy slide either. it was big! i enjoyed going down it even and had to, many times i add, cary logan up the ladder to go down it. Logan is almost 15 months. my little baby is gone and someone switched him out with a little boy.

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New Favorite Song, 2 of my favorite vocalists.







Miss You

Music and V-day

So I got to say, I love turning on Pandora and dancing around the house with my boy Logan. He's got some good rhythm. He spins and bounces up and down, jumps, and taps his little feet. It's also nice to be able to turn off the tv for an hour a day.  

Yes, I have kind of gone through a Johnny Cash thing. I think a lot of that has to do with me watching "Walk the Line". Awe for a love like Johnny and June's. 

My little guy has grown so much! He is starting to say "Fish" "Car" "Hot" "Ball/Bear" and makes the elephant sound. He recognizes dogs but hasn't figured out the word yet. He loves kicking balls. He isn't much into throwing it but he loves to pick it up and run... maybe he'll play soccer or rugby. Who knows. I just can't believe how much he's grown in the past year from when he was born. Logan and I have been up to a lot of fun things lately. We went to the Ravens super bowl parade two tuesdays ago. Me and my friend Lorry packed up our three kids and walked 1 1/2 to 2 miles to the metro, braved the crowds with two large strollers and went to see our team. We made a sign that said, "We love Pitta and his wife!" unfortunately Dennis was on the other side of the parade and didn't get to see it. It's fun knowing a player. I'm excited to see their little boy when they have him and bring him back to Maryland. Last week Logan and I went to a bounce house with some other kids, next day we went and decorated cookies with some other women (and man did we decorate cookies! Lorry made TONS of delicious sugar cookies) then we went to a valentines party and I was an awesome mom and made Logans valentines and a valentine box. So I have eaten a lot of sugar due to Valentines day. That's ok, workout rebegins this week.

See how many cookies?!

YUM!

I have more pictures but they are on my phone and I have no idea how to get multiple pictures off. Oh well :) 

Update

So we got back from our trip to Utah a couple of weeks ago. It was so nice and so well needed. I unfortunately didn't get to see everyone that I wanted to. Family took up a lot of the little time that we had.
   It's how I've been feeling and its the one that  is speaking to me lately. Now if only there was a song called "its because of you I can't listen to country music anymore" that one would speak to me. I think it would be a sad romantic country song.  One where it starts off about listening to country in the car, true real love, and then having it all go away and ending up with a stanza like if I could I would press rewind so I could listen to country again.
On a different note, Logan and I had a blast yesterday eating lunch on the balcony. We had a peanut butter and honey sandwich. I actually felt like a great mom yesterday! It's nice when you're not kept up all day inside watching tv feeling like a lazy bum. Love my little blond hair blue eyed boy.