6 weeks

so our lil guy is 6 weeks old. there is so much that we have learned!
- he hates being swaddled
- he kicks his covers off at night
- he doesn't like to be held like a baby, instead he like so sit up usually
- he is very social and loves making noises to have people talk back to him
- he only has one binkie he likes
- he loves looking at the pictures on the wall
- he thinks its funny when we do the indian call
- he loves baths *unless he's in a mood
- he pees A LOT and EVERYWHERE
- he is a sweet baby and feels like an old spirit
- he loves grabbing our faces
- he sleeps with his mouth open
- he sometimes snores and laughs in his sleep
- he loves sleeping on his side
- he loves to cuddle

HE'S HERE!!

yes, baby banks is here! my water broke at 9:30 december 9th got to the hospital by 9:45 parents got there by 10:00. labor wasn't progressing so i was finally started on potocin at 5:00 a.m.got my epidural at 8:30, i stayed dilated to a 2 until 2:00 p.m. by 5:00 i was barely at a five. i had my mother rub my feet with lavender oil just like spencer had done for me. at 5:15 i looked at spencer and said, i feel like i need to push but i'm not sure. luckily spencer talked me into calling the nurse in to get checked. sure enough, i was at a 10 and he was ready to be born. we did rest and decend which allowes the baby to move farther down by itself so it's less pushing later. we started pushing at 6:45 and finally after 21 hours of labor he was born at 7:20 p.m. saturday december 10th. i think the greatest part was when we were pushing and spencer said, "oh honey he's so cute!" that right there made me so happy!
now he's a week old and we have gotten better at figuring out how to sleep, how to keep him from peeing on everything when we change his diaper (took many loads of laundry later to figure it out), what he needs when he cries, and above all just better at getting use to having another little person in our family who depends on us for everything. i worry tho that its going by way to fast! his eyes are already open more and he's starting to make faces that almost seem like they are on purpose. i really want to cherish every moment cause now i think i realize that i'm never going to get these moments back more than ever.
i am so greatfull for this experience and for the opportunity to be a mother. i looked forward to this time my entire life but it never really felt like it was really going to happen and now that it's here, it still doesn't feel real. our little boy has already taught me so much and has increased my testimony. i am so greatful for this experience i get to have in this life. our little boy is amazing and so incredibly cute! we love him so much!

excited to see what our man looks like! :)

so recently, since the day Logan is going to be born is drawing near, i have been constantly wondering what he is going to look like. SO! here are some pictures of me, spencer and logan. I think logan is going to look like spence.

to logan

we can't wait to meet you. whenever that may be. you're so special to us and we love you so so much. i already have such a great feeling about the kind of person you are going to be. i already know that you are amazing and we are so excited to have you as a part of our family. Remember that mommy and daddy love you and will love you forever and always.
Muah!
Love, Mom and Dad

soon!

so i am totally hoping logan decides to come into this world soon. (yes i am only 37 weeks, almost 38) He's full term and we are so happy about that! especially after all of the scares we had earlier this trimester. I keep thinking he's going to come that day and then he doesn't... i can't tell if it's my body saying it's going to be soon so you better get ready or if it's just wishful thinking. I've also been having contractions every hour the last couple of days as well. my biggest fear is that i won't know i'm in labor and that just wouldn't be good. I'm just so excited for our little man to get here!!!!! it's so weird that the second i'm in labor and have this baby everything is going to suddenly change.... so crazy but so exciting.

CHUB

So, Yes i am pregnant. OBVIOUSLY! (I am suppose to be working on a paper but come on, who wants to do that) I have officially gained 40 LBS! LUCKILY!!! it doesn't look like it. Except now i can see it a lot in my face, the back of my hips, thighs and of course belly. I'm just glad that it has been an all over gain so i don't look completely huge. I can't wait to work out again. Even if it's just zumba on the kinect or just dance on the wii. That's all i want. to be able to move again and get back in shape! this is the most sedentary i have been since... well my whole life. AND IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS!!!!!!!! Luckily this will all be worth it. then we can have a little guy i can take with me to do all this fun active stuff. OH CAN'T WAIT!

being pregnant

Being pregnant has got to be the most beautiful, awkward thing in the whole world. i feel beautiful, fat, ugly, happy, sad, annoyed and completly at peace all at once. Yes sounds crazy, but so are my hormones. I have to admit that i wish i could workout. I am literally going through sit up withdrawls. I am, however, completely okay with it. Why? because i get to have a baby. There will be plenty of time to get in shape after Logan gets here. This is the greatest time of my life :)